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you keep holding on.

I just watched 500 days of Summer for the first time. In case you dont know what its about..it's a bout a guy's first real encounter with what he thinks is his soul mate. It's a relationship with a lot of good memories.Those remarkable ones you play over and over in your head. Sadly, it doesnt work out because his girlfriend feels nowhere close to what he does...and dude just keeps holding on to those memories, convinced it's bound to work out. Like destiny. Memories do not equal destiny. Ive been in his shoes. And ive also been in her shoes. Learning to let go isnt easy in most cases. Well when youve actually attached yourself so greatly because youve never felt in such a way before. With Martin, my greatest love, my love of my life, I've learned the art of letting go. I learned this art before we even became a serious relationship. He's been the one man that I had feelings for, and then was able to let go of them when he showed signs of uncertainty. Then he came back. For good. When he was ready and I was ready. And here we are. We've learned to let go so we would be able to hold on to each other for the long run. I dont think a lot of people can do that. Or many couples known how to. With him, I dont replay events and memories of what weve gone through already that keeps making me fall in love with him. It's who he is with me on a daily basis and what we are for each other today and tomorrow that makes him my everything. memories are sometimes over done that cause more harm than good. Songs are about the equivalent of that as well. But ive also had to learn to take the power out of songs and what they held over me. I've had to regain meaning to songs that I really love and not let them have such an impact on me because they remind me of someone or something. If this is something I can teach everyone I would. Stop holding on.

Supercuts

I'm sitting in a Supercuts in harlingen, tx. It's been 1 year and 6 months, and I have yet met anyone that I trust to do a great enough job with cuts, color and style....in this place I call home. Until then I will get simple trims at this local Supercuts. By the way, its packed. 5 stylists, and at least 12 waiting. If I had not already dropped my car off to get an oil change, I would save this cut for another day. Nothing exciting. Not even close. Oh, on a great note, my little brother Ivan has returned from Afghanistan, safely! I'm excited to get him back on Texas soil. And even more excited to take him to vegas in October, for his 21st bday. Yeeee!

DaBate goes on....and da beat goes on....

Facebook etiquette. Could this be something that everyone in the world must read before even signing up for an account. I guess if there was such a rule, then, a person would feel restricted in what they could and could not type out to the world. So I guess this goes more in the file that is marked "being conciderate". Most facebook postings are not well thought out, revised drafts that have been read out loud,and posted with a good grade. FB is spontanous as f*ck. Now this brings me to something that Martin, my dearest beloved boyfriend, has mentioned. "Facebook is just a way to wreck someone and their relationships with others". How true. Let's talk about family. I currently have two brother in laws that are in odds with eachother over FB postings that have to do with what one feels is inconciderate of another's 'feelings'. This is in my last post...about the quickie engagement to a jane doe nobody knows. If some 'bachelor' pics werent blasted all over fb..that well, just showed how not included the other brother was. Then more pics of a certain s.o's spring break popped all over and again, more aggravation. Not at all intended to be...but...thank you FB. I admit, I was not so much on FB until 2010. 2009 was full of party pics with my yuma friends....but nothing scandalous.And once I moved here...MY FB world went into a new era "Being conciderate of Martin". I mean, he doesnt even have a FB. He refuses. And I love mine because it keeps me connected to 80% of the world that lives far from me. The most important person in my life, besides myself, is Martin. So now, my life including fb postings are with concideration to him. I dont do anything that will make him angry..on purpose. Recently, it's not what my friends post..but what family is posting. like siblings. like it's ok to post certain things and not get an angry phone call regarding it. Why post it to the world and not let a more important person know...since it's more of a personal matter. ahhh..it's a neverending debate.

Ever After

In reference to the Grouch & Eligh song. One of the best Living legends songs of all time. Sooo, how should one feel if a sibling of theirs, a close sibling of theirs, was getting married to a person that no one frm the fam had met? This sounds like a subplot of movies...but, it's something that my family in law is going through. One of my brother-in laws, who is pretty much my brother (all there off them are the best brothers one can have)..and is in the ARMY, has found himself a girl that he wants to marry. Granted he is only 21...and this is his first year in the ARMY...but according to him, she is the one. Anyway, besides the fact that not a single member of his family has met her...the wedding is next weekend and only the bride's family will be present. The wedding is in washington state, and his fam is in South texas...there's a language barrier because his parents only speak spanish, and hers only english..yeah...so my in laws were not comfortable at all being somewhere, where they just werent going to understand what was going on. And now, one of the brothers is disowning him for not waiting longer to get married. This brother that is disowning is currently deployed in Afhganistan...ahh..the complications of family life. But what can you do.

still above the clouds

blog #3 of the on goings of my life. Maybe since I have started brand new in texas than I figured why not start a brand new blog like a new chapter. Plus having both a palm pre and a bb tour it makes it easy to switch in between blogs. I'll reserve the exclusivity of this blog to my pre....anyway. Here I am, in the south east point of texas which I now call home. I'm living with the man I'm in love with. I haven't even been able to say "I love you" yet but you can thank my previous chaos involving that statement for that. I did however just tell him he was my "everything" while drowsy last night and after he got me a glass of iced tea. So I tink that counts even more than I love you does. Besides that I no longer am living anywher near my fam, but instead am surrounded by his. And this I love because they are all awesome people that already give me unconditional love and support. This place is more country than I could ever handle. Especially for my hip hop soul. But then again that's what love is. Accepting all of it. And appreciating it too. But I haven't gotten my dose of some good hip hop. Even working with the technology of cell phones and all, and now doing sales for that, I haven't found or made the time to look for a good performance anywher near. As a person, I've become both meaner and ruthless when it comes to dealing with those that just refuse to help themselves. Wireless customers included. Which is beginning to make it a frustrating experience working in this city of mcallen, where the majority fall into that category. Coming from the yuma store was like preparation.